Mondays, Change and Feeding my Soul

I’ve got a case of the Monday’s. While I had a post in my queue on laundry (exciting!), it just didn’t seem to fit. I’m not quite sure what fits today. But I can tell you laundry is not it.

Instead, I’ve been taking a little me-time this morning, drinking my coffee and rocking out to the Foo Fighters. That’s all I’ve felt like doing. Just sitting here, catching up on the news, reading, and singing along with Dave Grohl. While I should be waiting for the Tuesday Tunes Meme that Amanda started over at HighImpactMom, I’d like to think of today as preparation.

Today, for me, is an anniversary of sorts. A very private one that I won’t go into, except to say that one year ago today I changed as a person forever. My world was rocked and I can look back now and see that not only am I a stronger person, but a better person.

What makes us change as a person is different for everybody. But change comes at a level that you’ve never thought of before. When you truly change, it’s at a cellular level. Sure you feel it in your bones, but when you experience true change, it’s deeper than you can describe. The unfathomable depths people talk about when they change is something I get, way deep down in my soul. And if you’ve not experienced that change, you won’t understand.

That’s where I’m at now. I’ve changed. I’m not the same Lisa I was one year ago.  I’m a better Lisa. Sure, I’m still me, but I’m me on a deeper level. One that prefers to stay at home and spend more time in thought. Sure, I’m still quite the social butterfly, but I spend more time in reflection and meditation.

I’m feeding my soul.

I spent a lot of time being soul tired over the past twelve months. There’s a difference between being physically, mentally, or emotionally tired. When your soul is tired, it needs more than just a good nights sleep. It needs time. Not just time to rest, but time to find inner quiet, to stop dwelling on the past, to stop worrying about the future. Time to spend in prayer and quiet contemplation. To be mindful in everything you do.

When you’re soul tired, there isn’t a quick fix. You can’t rush it. That’s the beauty and agony of being soul tired. The only thing you can do is feed it when it needs to bed fed, rest when it needs to rest and give it the time to heal that it needs.

And when your soul is feeling energized again, you’ll feel it on that cellular level. It’s an amazing feeling to remember.